If You Really Look at Me

*The lines around my eyes aren't crows' feet, they are the hard-earned stripes I've received for a life worth living, and worth living hard.

*The creases around my mouth aren't wrinkles, they are reminders of the countless smiles and unforgettable moments of laughter that I've been blessed with.


*The gray in my hair isn't just another sign of my premature aging, it's the crown of silver that God has offered me for the years of perseverance, at times painful, that I've put in.

*The ache in my back isn't just some symptom of a degenerative disc, it's simply the aftermath of having carried two children who changed my life, and who will one day change the world.

*The painful crick in my neck wasn't caused by my body growing older or by me sleeping in an awkward position, it was brought on by the hours I laid awake in my bed and prayed over my family like an ever-watchful sentinel standing guard between them and the very gates of hell.

*What sometimes comes across as a forceful disposition doesn't come from me not getting what I want out of life, it comes from the experience and wisdom I've gained that have taught me that being persistent is the only way to get what I want... And from the beautiful people in my life who have instilled a passion in me to never settle for less than just that.

*If you look at me and see a thirty-something year old woman with too many miscellaneous-looking kids, a body that could use some toning-up, hair in a tangled mess, and a frazzled look on my face, well.... you don't really see me at all.

*Because if you really saw me for me, this is what you would see:
  
   *A woman who has been kicked and held down too many times to count, but has also managed to get back up at least one more time than that.
   *A woman who refuses to accept no as an answer to anything I ask for, because the things I ask for are rarely for myself.
   *A woman who, in spite of the skepticism and doubt surrounding her existence, proved herself worthy to be called Wife, Mother, Friend, and Daughter of God.


   *A woman who, today, is a better person than she was yesterday; and, who is determined to be better tomorrow than she is today.
   *A woman who might make you prove yourself to her, but if she finds you worthy of her time and affection, will love and fight for you to the death, if need be... And stand, without regret, by your side, even if it means having to do so in the pits of hell.
 

*This is what you see when you look at me, *if* you really look at me.... now I wonder, what would I see if I took the time to *really* look at you? Won't you tell me, friend?